Waking up

Its been a very long time since i visited this page to pour out my feelings about any happenings in my life..it no way means that i had nothing going on in my life..haha..wish that could ever happen..more details on the lost one year later...because to speak i was all the time caught up with sumthin that acc to many shall be nothin becuase they never really knew that there really was sumthin!!! confusing ....rite?? same here....

so why today!!! hmmm....today i woke up in a dillema...i actually woke up from a long sleep of one year to see that i have lost a lot in this one year...so much that i dint even imagine i cud...so much that i cant even measure...so much that finding all that will take a life time...but may be its high time that i let things just go...

i dont know whether i ll visit this page tomorrow..whether i ll visit it again this year...but yeah if i burn off in this fire..the kind of fire that will burn everythin and you shall never even know...but i knw i can rise from those ashes again...i will always rise...i m nt jst tryin to act like a phoenix...i am just trying to be the sam i knew a year back...

all this time of my sleep..if there was sumthin i did regularly...it was to keep readin random blogs on the web...hmmm..no reason though..but yeah it gave me a lot of support...thinking that i am not all alone in this fight against my own sleep...i smiled at knowin ppl got engaged..i cried at sumone's break up....i smiled whn sumone got a great surprise on the vday...i cried whn sumone sat all alone near the window smokin a cig wid a coffee on that day...

i was still living each and every day the way others were...the thing that never changed even when the fire got the best of me...i just kept smiling...because i trusted my eyes that they wnt lose their strength till they see no one anywhere..

hmmm..enough of this depressive post..well...just keeping up wid my previous posts...guess sumthings never really change :)

and i hope i remain smiling as always no matter wht...